Unknown Intersection in Downtown Boston
So since I started this blog, I have been riddled with misgivings about the decisions I have made. It's one thing to blaze my own trail; it's another thing entirely to burn my bridges and cut my losses regardless of collateral damage. And it seems that at every turn, I get caught at a stoplight-someone or something ready and all-too willing to stop me cold. Where does one draw the line between following the Golden Rule and your basic self-preservation instincts? I know that ultimately, I need to live for God, and I don't have a problem with that. But it's just so easy to get caught up in the day-to-day grind, and lose sight of the things that are really important in this life and the next. Sometimes, I feel like I should just take my life and run with it. The sky's the limit, no? The only thing holding me back is... what exactly is holding me back?
Fear.
Fear of the unknown, fear of hurting others, fear of rejection. Fear of not measuring up to other people's expectations of me, fear of not being as smart or as talented or as capable as I think I am. Fear of losing myself to my environment, of being caught up in the moment. Fear of my past catching up to me, and fear of the future and everything it entails. Fear of regret.
Well pardon my French, but it's time to fuck fear. It's time to start living my life. To the fullest. Free of fear, and shame, and regret. Letting the past go, and looking forward to the rest of my life. Loving others, while not being afraid to put myself before them once in a while, and of course, putting Jesus Christ first and foremost in all things.
"Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."
-Luke 2:14
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